Living a healthy and happy life means a lot to us, but last week when my father expired I realised that a peaceful and painless death also means a lot.
My father suffered from Urinary bladder Cancer and after it was removed the Doctor said now he would be free off Cancer. All of us were happy, finally getting rid of that dreadful disease, little did we know it was going to spread and eat him up from inside in the coming months.
The sudden back pain and other symptoms led to check-up only informing us of his last few days with us. It was so sudden, we hardly had any time to think, all we could do was give him the possible treatment to ease his pain. The last 3 days were the most painful one, watching him suffer in pain and breathlessness, awaiting his death.
As he could not express much and probably looking at our helplessness suffered quietly so as not to upset us. As he lay there in pain I felt helpless and for once wished there were more medications to cure Cancer even at a later stage. Chemo-therapy cannot be taken by all due to age and weakness, and the suffering due to Chemo is terrible.
Praying god to take him away so he could be free of pain was the most painful thing for me, as Death was the only relief for him. At that time losing him forever didn't matter, watching him suffer silently - the occasional curling-up due to pain was unbearable.
The news of his death early morning by my bro brought some relief, when I saw him lay there with a peaceful expression on his face, for the first time I felt calm and was happy for him.
But today I miss him, and remember all the good times we had from our childhood to this day. How I wish there was some treatment to ease all the pain and erase all the Cancer that had spread inside him.
I will always miss him........
My father suffered from Urinary bladder Cancer and after it was removed the Doctor said now he would be free off Cancer. All of us were happy, finally getting rid of that dreadful disease, little did we know it was going to spread and eat him up from inside in the coming months.
The sudden back pain and other symptoms led to check-up only informing us of his last few days with us. It was so sudden, we hardly had any time to think, all we could do was give him the possible treatment to ease his pain. The last 3 days were the most painful one, watching him suffer in pain and breathlessness, awaiting his death.
As he could not express much and probably looking at our helplessness suffered quietly so as not to upset us. As he lay there in pain I felt helpless and for once wished there were more medications to cure Cancer even at a later stage. Chemo-therapy cannot be taken by all due to age and weakness, and the suffering due to Chemo is terrible.
Praying god to take him away so he could be free of pain was the most painful thing for me, as Death was the only relief for him. At that time losing him forever didn't matter, watching him suffer silently - the occasional curling-up due to pain was unbearable.
The news of his death early morning by my bro brought some relief, when I saw him lay there with a peaceful expression on his face, for the first time I felt calm and was happy for him.
But today I miss him, and remember all the good times we had from our childhood to this day. How I wish there was some treatment to ease all the pain and erase all the Cancer that had spread inside him.
I will always miss him........
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