Its been raining heavily since yesterday, the luscious trees and its long branches are trying to reach in through the window of my room. The sudden heavy shower has cooled down the heat which in the last few days was like standing in front of bon fire.
Love watching the view outside but missing few things,
like my friends.... the sharing of day to day things, with a cup of tea. Nowadays everyone is busy with their life & its small yet life size problems.
Few years back life was different........ back then, taking my kiddo to school, coping with his homework, bringing up the little bundle of joy to a young adult was enjoyment of life. Those days I never thought of any view or the beautiful trees or heavy rain-showers.
Life revolved only around my kid, his interest, likes, dislikes, homework, classes & extra curricular activity. Nothing else mattered.
Today he has a life of his own, watching him grow up, take decisions, give excuses for bunking college, night outs, partying with friends...... working towards his dreams....... is a different life altogether.
Back then there was no time & lots to do, today lots of time & very little to do. Guess thats life.
Now my family feels I should do something to keep myself busy, go out with friends, jus cook & be around only when they need me. Funny, isn't it?
[Its easier said than done.. ]
When I could or wanted to have some time for myself, I was reminded of all my duties towards family. Wifely duties, motherly duties......... etc etc.
The worst thing is most of my friends have a similar life.
Its very difficult to switch on & off according to others needs, especially when you give up your dreams, desires and stop living for yourself, sometimes even forgetting what you enjoyed eating or cooking a dish which you enjoyed most.
After a long gap one has to really think hard........ my life ?????? what I liked/enjoyed ........ do I still want the same things or do they even matter any more?
I feel more like an old yet valuable art....... cannot be thrown as there are some sentiments attached to it, with time its colour has faded yet has to be retained........for, may get appreaciated again some day.
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